I'm making progress. I'm still about a week behind in the Art, Heart and Healing classes, but I'm enjoying the process so much. This has been such an eye opener really. Not only in how I see myself, but how others close to me affect that same view, and how I deal with it. Honestly, I don't do well. I worked really hard on my layout and was really excited to show off one element of the layout before I was totally finished. Mom liked it a lot (she's always been my biggest fan really) and dad, well he didn't say a thing. He just did his classic "Humph".
I shook it off like I usually do. When Chris got home from work, I showed him. He liked it as well, but when he started in with the suggestions he usually does (Which I am thankful for, he really does help me see my art from a non artist point of view), I just got really defensive and broke down into tears. I was really upset by my dad's lack of praise.
My sister brought up a good point. He's never really been supportive of my art. I don't know if it's just because I never finished college and doing something with it, or what. While growing up, the only time he seemed to show any kind of praise was when it directly involved him. For a recent example, the kitchen cabinets. Because he bought used cabinets and saved money on refinishing them because I did it, he was proud of how they looked. My sister and I put up the kick boards under the cabinets with 45 degree cuts and everything. I admit it looks good, dad's proud because he didn't have to pay someone to put them in.
But when it comes to supporting the things my sister and I do that doesn't involve him in some degree, there is no praise, or even that look of pride. I wonder if it's because he and I aren't close (We just barely get along as it is, mainly because I stay out of his way most the time and totally avoid him when he's been drinking).
Anyway, here's my page 2. I didn't have a board book to alter, so I just stuck it right in my journal with page 1 that I did last week. I feel the journal is more of a self healing, self discovering journey and the pages fit well together.
I definitely need to practice more with gel medium image transfers. I haven't decided if it was not enough water, too much water, or my pressing down too hard that led to the image peeling a way a little bit, but I still like it.
See my cute little faery?! She was what I was excited to share with my mom.
I love how she turned out! I think I must draw more faeries just like her. She was so fun to draw.
Well, on to page 2 of week 2.